WELL. Um. This. This gets me where I live. Zhao Yunlan doing everything he can, even as he is absolutely losing it, to keep from being used against Shen Wei. To keep from endangering people, and it's too much but giving in would be worse and so he holds on even when he can't track what's happening anymore?

Yeah. WOW. That's gorgeous. And then the contrast to the Dixing power causing him pain (which is GENIUS, by the way) and Shen Wei touching him with such exquisite care.

Then. Letting go because Shen Wei is there. And Zhao Yunlan trusts Shen Wei over anything else and he knows it's safe when Shen Wei is there.

OH MY HEART. ♥

This is a condensed dose of h/c goodness delivering EVERYTHING. Thank you so much for the glorious fill!