Umm. Well, I'm glad it makes sense to you! :) (and I'm not being sarcastic - I really am glad) I just don't see it.

And yeah, it doesn't make sense that John would accept a teammate's death. A lot of things about this episode don't make sense to me, frankly. As you can probably tell, I have a real love/hate relationship with this episode. I can't remember the last time an episode simultaneously made me so squeeful and so angry at the same time. :)