Avengers fic: No Such Liberty, part 6-8

[xparrot]

Chapter 8 is a turning point originally intended to be at the halfway mark. As it's working out it's a little-less-than-a-quarter, though the general structure of the story still stands. (Good grief this is absurdly long; I have my doubts that anyone will actually read it to the end. I'd be more sorry if I didn't actually really like the story, with most of my favorite stuff what's coming up next. It's what I want - and what else is the point of fanfic, if not blatant self-indulgence?)

No Such Liberty (32,614 words) by Xparrot
Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8
In which Thor should know better.

Comments

[ro-anshi.livejournal.com]

I JUST I CAN'T EVEN.

GAH.

[xparrot.livejournal.com]

...I hope that's a good thing? ^^;;; (more up soon...though the angst only gets thicker; darkest before the dawn, etc...)

[ro-anshi.livejournal.com]

Just as long as there IS a dawn, baby girl. And you've never not delivered before.

I'm just so MAD at him right now I'm ready to cry.

(Have you read any of Hiddleston's desires for the character? - to make him EVEN DARKER, make him hit bottom, and finally be redeemed?)

I need a Loki icon. I guess I'll have to sacrifice a Gojyo or two. Poor Gojyo. Unloved again.

[xparrot.livejournal.com]

Heeee, yes, I've read...way too much of Tom Hiddleston's Loki!feels ^_^ And while they didn't much influence this fic directly, I admit a lot of them made me go, yup yup yup...

And no, you know me, I could never write anything this long and have an unhappy ending! ...that's mostly why it's this long, because, Loki... (I worry that some folks who don't know me might be wary of where it's going...I do like the angst, it just never looks quite as dark to me when I can see the end of the tunnel so clearly ^^;)

[ro-anshi.livejournal.com]

I worry that some folks who don't know me might be wary of where it's going

I'm sure you recall how, back in the day, I would email you and beg you to tell me it was going to be all right before I would read things you posted online. (Killing me softly with "Pieces", okay?) But since, yes, I do know you (almost 12 years now, eek!!!) and I can breathe - more or less - knowing your endgame history.

You are right when you said that Loki is a spiky woobie. He shook off every apologetic plot point in my fic outline until I had to flat-out embrace his villainy. (Which says something about me, since I have realized that I am "sent" a fandom when I need to examine something about myself.) But it made my plot such that in the end, Loki has essentially "loki'd" HIMSELF and it's not a pretty picture. About all I can say is your ending will probably be happier than mine.

GAH I wish I could chat with you about ALL THE FEELS.

[ro-anshi.livejournal.com]

PS - I've never had a character lie to me so much in my life. Wow.

[xparrot.livejournal.com]

Ahhh don't have it be too unhappy~! I can't read too unhappy Loki-fic, it makes me sadface (...one would think with all my love of villains I would be better at the angst, but noooo~~~ :P)

...But Loki lying to you, ahahah oh yes. He keeps Loki'ing me - every time I start to worry that he's reached the end of his schemes, nope, he pulls another trick! It does make him very entertaining to write, I don't know myself what he's going to do next...

ETA: heee, icon~! (I really need one of Hiddles!Loki myself...)

[ro-anshi.livejournal.com]

Ahhh don't have it be too unhappy~! I can't read too unhappy Loki-fic, it makes me sadface (...one would think with all my love of villains I would be better at the angst, but noooo~~~ :P)

Right now, honestly? I can see no way of it ending with him anything other than suicidal. But that's today. And maybe that's me. ::wink::

...But Loki lying to you, ahahah oh yes. He keeps Loki'ing me - every time I start to worry that he's reached the end of his schemes, nope, he pulls another trick! It does make him very entertaining to write, I don't know myself what he's going to do next...

(Speaking in a writerly mental manner here....) He and I just had a serious talk, and he promised me he would not lie to me. And I felt the truth in my heart so we are cooperating. BUT THAT'S TODAY.

ETA: heee, icon~! (I really need one of Hiddles!Loki myself...)

I paid for an LJ for the first time in years to be able to upload more icons and to get access to some paid themes. Sheesh.

[xparrot.livejournal.com]

...oh dear, yes, Loki's survival instinct is always at odds with his self-hatred, doesn't take much to tip that balance in the wrong direction...why do you hurt yourself like this, baby ;_;

And be careful...sometimes he's not actually lying, just neglecting to fill you in on his entire plan, so it looks like the plot is flowing along smoothly and then, LOKI'D!

[ro-anshi.livejournal.com]

why do you hurt yourself like this, baby ;_;

Well, after watching some fanvids on YouTube (I did get other stuff done this weekend, honest!) I was reminded that there's a big blond guy who is kinda simple, but for some indecipherable reason, will never give up on his little brother....

And be careful...sometimes he's not actually lying, just neglecting to fill you in on his entire plan, so it looks like the plot is flowing along smoothly and then, LOKI'D!

I will teach him the doctrine of Full Disclosure.

And he is teaching me to stop lying to myself. No one knows lying better than Loki.

Another thinky night

[ro-anshi.livejournal.com]

I suppose it means something SIGNIFICANT if Loki sews his own lips shut, hmm?