xparrot: WeiLan hearteyesing from naye! <3 (Guardian heart)
Life continues to be very busy but it's currently feeling...manageable? Yay for longer days, and for coffee & tea, and for getting to introduce things like Toy Story to kidlets for the first time (though the climax of Toy Story 3 was too intense and required cuddles. Aww.)

Plus, after almost three weeks of not writing a word, I seem to have found my way back to a few of them! And returned a fic I've been working on for over a year now. Does it still make sense? I don't even know! But I like the story (for the aaaaaaangst) and hope to someday share it in more than a few random pieces.

Until then, though -- another random piece:

Da Qing nodded. "Lao-Zhao's worried about the same thing. But what could they try this late anyway? If we sleep now, then we'll be awake later to catch them, whatever they're up to."

Which was uniquely feline logic, but Shen Wei could not deny that a little rest might be restorative. Or else that was just his own weakness--of his injured lung, and his heart too, when Da Qing said, imploringly, "Come on, Lao-Zhao will want me to tell him you got some sleep, and I hate lying to him..."

That was asking too much, perhaps; but Shen Wei at least changed into pajamas. He didn't go to the bedroom, though, but sat back down on the couch to meditate.

Da Qing grumbled, but sat down beside him, round and furred. Curling up with his curving spine pressed against the side of Shen Wei's leg, he said softly, "Shen-laoshi--it's going to be okay."
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
The last few weeks have been very confusing for me writing-wise because somehow my brain decided to deal with all the stress and disruption of present times by making me write porn. Which is pretty normal stress-relief for a lot of people, but I...am just not into smut? For the longest time I've said I'm both the worse gen fan ever because I have so many ships; but also the worst slash fan because while I love romance, I always just skim the sticky bits.

I've been writing explicit stuff on occasion for years now -- I actually enjoy writing it more than reading it, have never figured that one out -- but this run I think is about the most I've ever written at once (...and I think it's pretty tame stuff really, but it feels like A Lot to me ^^;;;)

But I seem to be working it out of my system because last night I went back to an old and much-loved trope wheelhouse and wrote pure angst and ahh, it was very nice! Not sure yet what I'm going to do with this, if anything. But there was some talk on Twitter a bit ago about presumed dead and how there wasn't enough of it in Guardian fic, and this is a variation on one of the ideas that came up...

Read more... )
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
Things have been stressful lately and I haven't been writing, which really doesn't help my stress levels. I started this and then haven't gotten back to it but I'm posting it here in hopes of prodding myself.

...And yeah, stress means self-indulgence, which means...I believe the formal term is "back on my bullshit." :P
"Shen Wei?" Zhao Yunlan tilted the flashlight up toward his face, and Shen Wei raised his free hand to shade his eyes.

"Shen Wei, why aren't you wearing your breathing mask?" Zhao Yunlan demanded.

Shen Wei blinked back the momentary sparkles to look at Zhao Yunlan's face--his eyes were narrowed, echoing the inexplicable alarm in his voice. "My what?"

Zhao Yunlan reached to the annoying encumbrance hanging around Shen Wei's neck, gave it a tug. "Oh," Shen Wei said, "that--I couldn't properly smell the fragrance with it on."

"Yeah," Zhao Yunlan said, "wasn't that the point?"

Shen Wei tried to think. He had a vague memory of Lin Jing explaining something while giving them the masks, but the details slipped his mind now. But Zhao Yunlan was looking at him expectantly, so he hazarded, "Yes, that was the point."

"But then you took off the mask to better smell the murder flower's poison pollen."

"Yes, I did," Shen Wei confirmed, relieved to be on more certain ground.
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
Happy holidays & season's greetings!

I've been blocked with writing lately so haven't had much to post...but I've been trying to force myself to write at least a couple hundred words a day, and though I'm frustrated with them, that's 3K more words than I had last week, so that's something! And last night I was plotting out my [community profile] sundial_exchange fic and think I have something workable.

This is my angst fic, which I'm back at work on...only it's gone all plotty on me and now Xiao-Guo is undercover and Zhu Hong and Shen Wei have been debating Dixing-Yashou politics and I don't even know. But there is some angst still...
Shen Wei moved his trembling fingers, typed into the phone, You shouldn't risk this, Zhao Yunlan.

Then he stared at those stark words, and wrote beneath them, I miss you too.

Just a few characters--they weren't enough. But then, as spoken words they would still be inadequate. Far too small things to encompass the hollowness of the last few days--the fear of not knowing, the yawning emptiness.

He'd lived for years without Zhao Yunlan--waiting for Kunlun, for that promise to be fulfilled. He'd known loneliness, and the constant tug of yearning.

But that was nothing to this now--now, when he knew what it meant to have a life with Zhao Yunlan. Not just stolen moments between battles and nights hidden from the others, but to share work, meals, a bed. To make for him a home, and live in it with him, and know he would be coming back to it every night--Shen Wei hadn't realized how completely he had acclimated to it. Begun to expect it, to rely on it, in some deep unconscious part of himself. So to be deprived, even for those few days--to face that he might never have it again, no longer even waiting, but just--

The phone buzzed: I miss you so much, Xiao-Wei
xparrot: WeiLan hearteyesing from naye! <3 (Guardian heart)
Got another prompt on the h/c comment-fest right when I was thinking I wanted to do at least one more, so thank you [personal profile] shadowlancer_95 for that kick of instant inspiration! :D

A Cat's Discretion

As a little change of pace it's Da Qing's POV, with gen h/c (with Shen Wei. Okay it's not that much of a change of pace.)

And a Sunday Snippet, of a fic that I may not be able to bring myself to post because of how absurdly embarrassed I am about it (no, it's not because it's porn. There's a bit but really I'd be less embarrassed if this were a proper PWP instead of...whatever this ridiculous thing is.)
"The point of this, ah, game, is for you to have fun, isn't it, not for you to make yourself sick."

Zhao Yunlan rolled his eyes again. Okay, he could have predicted that among Shen Wei's myriad talents, drinking games probably weren't going to be a specialty.

Not that they had an actual game. Zhao Yunlan had tried to think of something besides beer pong--no way could he match Shen Wei's reflexes, even sober--or watching movies--Shen Wei didn't know the tropes anyway--and had done a little online research, before deciding that they were two grown-ass men and if they wanted to spend a weekend night, with their schedules carefully cleared, getting mildly shit-faced together, then they didn't need some silly excuse to do it.

...And then Shen Wei had spent the first hour doing the after-dinner kitchen cleanup between hits, because of course he did. Maybe he should have picked a game. "The point," Zhao Yunlan said, "is for us to have fun."
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
I posted the last chapter of 'Twas Brillig and then also put up the fic that I teased last week:

Spark
Sickfic, Domestic Fluff, Mild Hurt/Comfort, in the sense of being 1% hurt to 99% comfort

Shen Wei gets a Dixing cold, and Zhao Yunlan does his best to take care of him. That's it. That's the fic.


With that fluff out of my system I've finally gotten back to the angst-fic that's been on hold for months now (derailed a bit by getting a new computer up and running, agh what a process!). Though it's not entirely angst...
"Zhao Yunlan told us to give it to you," Chu Shuzhi said with grave reluctance.

"Lin Jing installed a secure GPS tracker app on this phone," Zhu Hong said, in a tone like she was making more sense of something instead of less. "Already signed in with Chief Zhao's phone, and he's got his own app set for this phone."

"I see," Shen Wei said, who didn't.

"So he'll be able to see where you are, and you can see where he is," Zhu Hong said. "Take the phone--please, Professor Shen? If you don't, Lao-Zhao will take it out on us."

Gingerly Shen Wei accepted the phone. Its glass screen was cool to the touch, Zhu Hong not producing any body heat to warm it. It weighed a little more than a dead mouse.
xparrot: WeiLan hearteyesing from naye! <3 (WeiLan heart)
The amnesia fic I was posting snippets of before is up on AO3, just one part to go:

'Twas Brillig
WeiLan, action/adventure, hurt/comfort

Zhao Yunlan's job is to save a few kids. He's got that. He just has a few questions. Like where are they, and how do they get out of here, and why does his head hurt so much?

And who the hell is this guy in the black cloak and mask?



And then I started another thing. Apparently, as much as I love angst, my true calling now is really sickeningly fluffy domesticity...the last thing that wrote this quickly was "Kite". This one...has even more words and even less plot. *sinks slowly into the ground*
"Shen Wei, what's up with you? This morning--you never oversleep, I don't ever need to set an alarm anymore--"

"I know," Shen Wei said wretchedly, "I'm sorry--"

"--and then this meeting--"

"--yes, that was an unacceptable oversight, I don't know how I--"

"--are you coming down with something?"

Shen Wei blinked at him. "Am I...?"

"Do you have a cold?" Zhao Yunlan said, slow and patiently.
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Last week we watched The Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance and oh, oh...my Skesis-loving six-year-old fangirl self was transported. I honestly don't remember the movie itself that clearly; but this is the world that existed in my head for so long after it.

The uncanny valley of the puppets may definitely be too steep for some, but it gives it a feel unlike any CGI feature -- or anything else -- and if you can navigate that, it's a creative, compelling, breathtakingly beautiful high fantasy epic. With a thinly veiled sledgehammer of an environmental message, and so much to say about hope in the face of despair and love in the face of selfishness and evil. Also a bunch of great female characters (the Gelfing are casually matriarchal, and I love that it doesn't explain it -- it doesn't need explaining! -- but at the same time, the females do have a clear biological advantage, so yes, why not?) and incredible voice acting and the aesthetic is so gorgeous and spectacular and wild (we were sold when we saw the carriages with the bug-wheels in all their low-key horror).

And also the Skeksis. Who are a gold standard of villains, a class by themselves -- proof that evil doesn't have to be sympathetic to be understandable, or compelling...but it does help to have some of the most incredible character designs of anything ever. They're horrific and terrifying and laughable and tragic and you cannot look away (and Simon Pegg deserves some kind of award for voicing The Chamberlain, just. Damn.)

So yeah. Good stuff.

And squeaking in the Sunday Six -- well technically it's a bit past Sunday here, but it's actually six sentences (thank you semicolons!) Guardian, of course, a thing from a bit ago that I'm trying to get back to, because we can always use more angst...right? right?!
Zhao Yunlan sank to the floor--not quite falling, but not quite controlled, either. He ended up crouched on the balls of his feet amid the shards of the broken light bulb, knees bent, one arm dragged up by the cuff. He dropped his head into his other hand, knotted his fingers in his hair.

Da Qing squatted down beside him, mirroring his pose. "Lao Zhao?" he said, but when he didn't get an answer he didn't ask again, just leaned in, until his shoulder only just touched Zhao Yunlan's.

Zhao Yunlan twitched, but didn't sidle away; he sat there and endured that contact.
xparrot: Chopper reading (Default)
Posted a ficlet, Guardian of course, pure fluff (literally; there's flannel PJs): as is deemed reasonable & necessary

The 30 Days of Guardian that has been going around on dw has been so much fun to read; I'm behind everyone else now doing it but tempted to start anyway...(never done a meme like that...I don't think I've managed daily posts for a month since, uh, ever...?)

Sunday Six(ish) is from the amnesia fic that's nearly done...it's, uh, only about twice as long as I thought it would be? That's honestly an improvement for me? ^^; It's like all action-adventure and banter; Guardian just brings out the old-school ficcer in me...
"If you meant it before," Zhao Yunlan said, "about keeping these kids safe--then maybe it won't be so bad, us working together."

There was a pause. Then the Envoy said, evenly and quietly enough to make it hard to read his tone, "So, I'm to understand that if I cooperate with you now, I'll find you more agreeable in our future partnership. While as if I do not, then you'll be...less amenable to work with."

"Oh, I can go way beyond less amenable," Zhao Yunlan assured him. "Try intractable. Hostile. Dissentious. One of my instructors at the academy used 'recalcitrant and intransigent' on an official review. You could pull rank all you want, but I'd make your every interaction with the SID a living hell."

"I don't doubt it," the Envoy said, but he didn't sound overly bothered.
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
There's a new monthly theme up at the [community profile] brush_and_lantern : Caves, Courts, Cottages

And I snuck in a bit of last-minute crackfic for the previous theme: i want to believe (alien abduction AU; I did it all for the punchline. the terrible punchline.)

Meanwhile have been struggling with my writing, so am throwing things at the wall to see what sticks...
Just inside the community center, behind the now-empty frames of the double doors of the entryway, was a figure--a shadow against darkness now inside; the light bulbs hadn't survived that blast, either, but the black cloak was darker yet than the unlit gloom within. He was holding his glaive, planted on the floor amid the shattered glass.

Zhao Yunlan grinned at that sight, even with glass crunching under his boots--overkill for sure, but to stop this guy... He lifted one hand, the other still knotted around Yan Shuyuan's collar, and offered a thumbs-up to that figure. "All good, Hei-laoge, we got him..."

The Envoy didn't hear him--no, ignored him. Zhao Yunlan saw his hooded head turn, saw his gaze passing over everyone below--the wailing and cowering crowd, the police officers with their guns drawn. And Zhao Yunlan--but he didn't pause, not meeting his gaze for even a moment, and Zhao Yunlan's hail died in his throat.
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
The Guardian Plot Bunny Farm has officially moved to [community profile] brush_and_lantern so check it out if you're in need of inspiration (or want to throw some out there!)

There's also a new monthly theme up: Aliens, Demons, Superpowers

Meanwhile, being blocked on my other fic, I started a new one, in the grand old tradition of tossing the characters into a cliche and hoping they'll figure it out. I'm still sulky with my writing atm but I'm having fun with the story, so I'll take it...
The figure started to step forward, and Zhao Yunlan cocked the pistol, the metallic click loud enough to be heard over the kids' whimpering. "You get one more warning," he said. "Stay back."

The figure didn't move closer, but it brought down its hand in a sharp gesture--Zhao Yunlan braced, but it wasn't calling back its weapon. Instead the black cloak and mask dissolved around it, to reveal a man--a man in glasses and a neatly tailored blue suit. And yeah, of course Dixingren could look as human as anyone if they tried, and most of them did; but still, this guy didn't look like he'd crawled up from any hellish underworld. More like he'd stepped out of an accounting office, or a university classroom.

"Zhao Yunlan, are you all right?" the man asked.

Zhao Yunlan didn't lower the gun, kept his elbows locked so his arms wouldn't shake too hard and his eyes narrowed against the vise of pain closed around his skull. "I'm just dandy," he said. "So who the fuck are you?"
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
Any Guardian fans on my flist probably have already seen this, but [community profile] brush_and_lantern fanworks comm is open for business with its first theme -- and its first work already! \o/

And I want to write something for that, plus I have two different long fic that I really want to be working on, one I have hopes of finishing this week and the other still has a ways to go but where it's going, ahh, I am nervous but excited to get there!

...and then I got on Twitter, and let's just say that [personal profile] tanndell is a menace and also I am weak, there are certain tropes I am so, so weak to, and Shen Wei tickles my id in a particular way...

"Shen Wei?" Zhao Yunlan asked over the phone.

"Zhao Yunlan?" Shen Wei said back.

"You call for anything in particular?" Zhao Yunlan said, in that particular tone that meant he was leaning back in his chair, with a specific grin Shen Wei knew very well, informal and satisfied. "Or just to hear my dulcet voice?"

"I do like hearing your voice," Shen Wei said. "Even over the phone, it's so gentle and yet so lively."
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Cheating a bit as these words were from last week, as this week I've only worked on my fic for the [community profile] sid_guardian 520 exchange, due Monday afternoon.

...Which is. Well. So I had this very clever strategy that I didn't even start it until last weekend, in hopes that hard limit would rein in my tendency toward rapidly expanding wordcounts. Given that the minimum wordcount for this exchange is easygoing 300 words, I figured even I would be okay.

The fic is now 15K words and is not done. It's gonna be a long weekend.

But these words aren't from that; they're from my other thing that I am dying to get back to (I de-stressed a couple days ago by reading over all I had of it, and while I still don't know if anyone else will like it, man but I do...if I had any shame I'd just keep it to myself, but I don't, so.)

Shen Wei didn't blink. Didn't break or lower his locked-on gaze. "I would forgive you," he said.

"Forgive me?"

"If you broke your promise," Shen Wei said. "I would understand."



(now I just gotta decide whether to wait to finish it and post it all at once, or make it a multi-chapter WIP and start posting it now...)
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
Just squeaking in this Sunday Six Sentence (which I haven't had much chance to write this week, which has been driving me slowly insane, but on the other hand it feels so good to be wanting to write again!)(...meanwhile this draft is at 14.5K and nowhere near done and did I mention that it was supposed to be maybe 5K, what is wrong with me, why are these chars like this??):

Shen Wei was standing under the shower, arms braced against the wall. His eyes were closed, his head tipped back into the water.

He was still fully dressed, soaked shirt and trousers clinging to his body, so they didn't conceal the shivers, fine tremors running through his shoulders, his extended arms.

"Shen Wei?" Zhao Yunlan said, over the water. When Shen Wei didn't react, Zhao Yunlan swore and leapt forward to shut it off.

Just sticking his hands under the shower long enough to reach the tap hurt--it wasn't just turned all the way to cold; there were icicles collecting on the showerhead, frost patterns spread over the metal. When Zhao Yunlan wrenched the tap off, it was with the crackling of breaking ice.
xparrot: WeiLan in the taxi in ep 8 (Guardian)
Originally found on Tumblr, Six Sentence Sunday is:

a writing thing where, on Sunday, you post six sentences from an unfinished work. It can be a new fic, a new chapter of a WIP, or even something you’re not sure you’ll ever post.

Shen Wei’s voice was even, calm; but his hand at his side was curled into a fist, just visible under the hanging sleeve of his bathrobe, and pressed tight against his thigh.

"Shen Wei,“ Zhao Yunlan said, and the way Shen Wei snapped to attention, the slight bow of his body towards Zhao Yunlan, as his too-dark gaze locked onto him–it was almost as usual, but not quite; at once appealing and disturbing. Zhao Yunlan cleared his throat, said, "If my being here makes this harder—if it’s really going to be better for you to go it alone, if you really want me to leave, then I’ll leave. I’ll clear out now and keep my distance until it’s all over.”

"It…“ Shen Wei swallowed. "It would be—you have your duties as Guardian, and this is hardly among them.”

"Not what I asked,“ Zhao Yunlan said gently.

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