woe is me

[xparrot]

I am just not cut out to be a slash writer. I can't write smut! I want to write smut. But the chars, they want to talk. For 8 pages! The hell, Lex? You want Clark. He wants you. What is the problem here? Just get down on your knees, boy. Geeze. It's not that difficult.

For some reason I can only write smut very late at night. Four in the morning when I'm supposed to be asleep, then I'll have all manner of sexy bodies in my head, writhing together under the sheets/against the wall/over the desk/in the mud/what-have-you. The rest of the time, might as well be a lost cause. Talking, though. I can write endless discussion anytime. I ought to stick to gen. But I like slash, too, darn it! If only it weren't haaaard...(and not in the good way.)

I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I am quite possibly the worst slash fan ever, in that half the time I don't even read the smut; I skim the sex to get to the juicy bits, which for me is the...talking. And angst. And cuteness. And basically all the relationshipping that happens in between. This is probably why I can be both a slash and a gen fan without much mental dissonance. Though it doesn't explain why I have pairings like Clark/Lex which I simply cannot see as gen (even when I don't always read and can't hardly write the slashy bits.)

Comments

[nenya85.livejournal.com]

Wow, I really am more intelligent when I have some time to think... there's probably a life lesson in there somewhere.

I think that often, in terms of the way people feel and the internal conflicts they have and the how the way they relate to people gets played out, and whether or how they form attachments (or don't) there isn't as much difference among the kind of attachments being formed as is often perceived.

When I look at my 8 year old daughter and her friends: she's upset because one of her friends will make a big show of being her friend on day and then ignore her the next. She has two best friends -- one likes her best, but although she likes them both a lot, she likes the other friend more. Sometimes it works out and they all play happily, some days there are hurt feelings all around. If you think about it, in a decade or so, these are the same dynamics and conflicts that will play out around forming romantic/sexual relationships as well.

One of the biggest internal conflicts I have as a parent is sort of parsing out what I need for myself as opposed to my responsibilities as a parent (and in yet another context my responsiblities as an employee) and sort of where I, myself as a person fit into this. This sort of self vs. being part of something is the same kind of conflict inherent in romantic/sexual relationships as well.

So I guess for me the underlying dynamics, communications, and conflicts remain, they simply get played out in different contexts.

[xparrot.livejournal.com]

This is pretty much how I see it; I like reading about all relationships, not just romantic, and don't feel one has more weight than another. A sexual relationsip at its inception is different from most others because of the intensity of feelings involved, and also because society tends to put a lot of weight on it (American society more than others, more for women than for men) but when a romance becomes long-term it becomes a family relationship anyway...(I've always loved stories about married couples, because I love family dynamics, and a married couple is as much about family as romance...)

Hmm, I don't know what I'm saying here! But I think you're right. (and I could go on here about the especially American obsession with sex that wants to interpret most relationships from that angle, so that guys aren't shown hugging on TV for fear of being taken as gay, and while there's nothing wrong with that anyway, friends can hug too...but I'll spare you that rant!)

[nenya85.livejournal.com]

I think for me, it just isn't as big a division (slash and gen) as it is for most people. This could be because I rarely read anything that focuses solely on describing sex in loving detail, so the slash I read focuses on relationships in the context of whatever is going on, as does the gen. In fact when someone asks me to describe a story, I usually have to take a moment to remember which it is...