unedited, at 9 AM

[xparrot]

The 9 AM is my bedtime, you see. (oops?) And the unedited is because I don't really want to think about this again, so I'm just putting it up raw, as is...I might read it over for typos later, but I might not. This isn't a real story, it's just something I had to get out of my system. Which I'm posting publicly because I have no shame, also, 9 AM (9:30 now!)

Umm. So I'm an OTPer, and very, very sensitive. Which means I really shouldn't have read friendshipper's recent flashfic, but I did anyway, because I'm also a masochist of the sort who always has to poke a bruise to make sure it still hurts (ow!)

So this is an entirely unauthorized sequel to her story. It's not what she meant her story to be, not by a long shot. Among other things, I pretty much totally sidestep the central threesome of her fic in favor of John and Rodney. It's a fix-it for a fic that isn't supposed to be fixed, that's not intended to be broken.

This story not actually McShep; it's not about destroying what she wrote. But it is changing things, making the chars go my way instead of hers. This still isn't a future I want to see, this is not how I want it to go. And yet I couldn't let it go. So. This. With all my sincere apologies to friendshipper, because it's not her fault I'm an oversensitive OTPing lunatic. Also to gnine and naye (please don't kill me tomorrow? Or today rather?)

nor let it be fearful
PG-13 for language, ~3,400 words
a fic response to Peace I Leave With You by Sholio/Friendshipper

Read it on AO3

Comments

[trystings.livejournal.com]

I'm finding it increasingly more difficult not to dislike her character these days. And my worst nightmare is that the show is going to end like this, with Rodney with Keller instead of his team...oh well! Whatever canon does, we've always got fanon - McShep & Team forever! XP)

The weird thing is, even though I hate the Rodney/Keller ship, I don't dislike Keller. If nine episodes from now, she and Rodney part ways amicably, I'm going to rewatch this season and thoroughly enjoy every scene she's in.

But yes, if I read Mallozzi correctly (and god, I hope not), we are hurtling towards a wedding. His idea of giving Rodney and Katie a child never made it to a script, because Rachel Lutrell announced she was pregnant, but it shows that he likes the idea of Rodney with a family. And Rodney has already broken up with a girlfriend once, they can't repeat that storyline.

I hate the idea, but whilst staring at my navel during yoga class tonight, it came to me that I might have to accept this stupid ship, if I want to survive the season. I'm still hoping for a huge twist though. *pushes Ronon forward* :D

Lovely title by the way.

[xparrot.livejournal.com]

Ehhh...one of the reasons I don't like Rodney/Keller is that I just don't like Keller much; it's not that I dislike her, but she bores me. Like Elizabeth, she's simply not a char I'm interested in watching or reading about. So the McKeller ship is adding insult to injury...Rodney + Keller actually makes me like Rodney less, which is a terrible thing!

Oh well, I don't think they can get as far as marriage this season...in a weird way I'm kinda glad the show is ending, because I fear the places Mallozzi would want to take it, had it continued...(oh man, if the final episode ends with Rodney proposing and Keller accepting, I am gonna have a mental breakdown! dangit, show, why do you have to do this to us? *whimper*)